My job starts tomorrow. As of 10:30am GMT, I shall be gaining valuable industry experience, and hopefully making new friends (or at least one, since I know almost all the people vaguely already).
I'm insecure about it, if I'm honest. And I have a regrettable tendency towards honesty.
I'm worried about one of several bad scenarios happening:
- I am bad at my job. Or, I am acceptable but my efforts are negated by someone with better solutions. In programming this is a real concern.
- The job is boring. This would be pretty crushing for my career prospects - you simply cannot be as good at/as committed to a job you don't find stimulating. I'm not *greatly* worried about this because I've always found programming fun before (yes, fun), but I'm afraid a big project will make it less so.
-The people pose a problem in some unforeseen way. Some people just don't work well with others, or with me. I know it's the reality of having a job but I hope it's not a dealbreaker with this one.
OK, that's all my stressing for tonight. Sleep time.
Whenever.
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Monday, May 31, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
21. The Buffer Period (Positive)
Argh. A month without a post. Again. Blah.
A lot has happened in the last month. Let's have a quick rundown, shall we?
1) I finished my programming project at last, and it worked flawlessly.
2) I got 12/15 marks for that essay. This was the second-highest mark in the class and extremely unexpected.
3) I received word that I will be interning at Open Emotion Studios this summer! Which is absolutely brilliant and possibly the best news I've had all year.
4) I sat my exams. For the most part they didn't go badly, but I definitely do not see another 4.0 QCA in my future. However, I'm happy that they're over now.
5) I have so far spent almost a week at home, potentially my only length of time at home for a while, so I plan to make the most of my time before I leave on the 31st, or possibly VERY early on the 1st.
6) I have a proper website at last! http://skynet.ie/~program9
At the moment I'm trying to squeeze an entire summer's worth of late nights and long lie-ins into less than two weeks. So that's going well. :D
A lot has happened in the last month. Let's have a quick rundown, shall we?
1) I finished my programming project at last, and it worked flawlessly.
2) I got 12/15 marks for that essay. This was the second-highest mark in the class and extremely unexpected.
3) I received word that I will be interning at Open Emotion Studios this summer! Which is absolutely brilliant and possibly the best news I've had all year.
4) I sat my exams. For the most part they didn't go badly, but I definitely do not see another 4.0 QCA in my future. However, I'm happy that they're over now.
5) I have so far spent almost a week at home, potentially my only length of time at home for a while, so I plan to make the most of my time before I leave on the 31st, or possibly VERY early on the 1st.
6) I have a proper website at last! http://skynet.ie/~program9
At the moment I'm trying to squeeze an entire summer's worth of late nights and long lie-ins into less than two weeks. So that's going well. :D
Sunday, April 18, 2010
19. Logic Never Felt So Good (Positive)
I finished that essay (see 18) and got it submitted on time. I'm pretty happy with it, but it made me realise how much I really don't miss Leaving Certificate English. I mean, fair enough, I was good at it. I suppose I must have been to get an A1. But writing essays just...doesn't appeal to me. I like to write, but I dislike having a topic to dance around for 2000 words. It smacks of overcomplication. I prefer to write what I'm thinking, all of it, and stop. Sometimes there's a lot, too much, and some is irrelevant. Other times I simply cannot get what I consider the good material to reach the word count. It's extremely frustrating having to pad an essay when you're as much of a perfectionist as I am.
With that in mind, I am now enjoying my programming assignment in a BIG way. The mental challenge, the well-defined goals, the medium which allows no half-measures or padding...I love it.
Assassin happened over the week before last and last week up to Wednesday. It was stressful but now it's over and I'm pleased about that at least.
To top it off, I had an interview for a summer internship on Friday. Which is awesome. I don't hold any hopes for it but I really am pleased to have been considered. I'll know whether it was experience or life-changing quite soon, apparently.
It's going to be a good week - the final one of lectures. Woo.
With that in mind, I am now enjoying my programming assignment in a BIG way. The mental challenge, the well-defined goals, the medium which allows no half-measures or padding...I love it.
Assassin happened over the week before last and last week up to Wednesday. It was stressful but now it's over and I'm pleased about that at least.
To top it off, I had an interview for a summer internship on Friday. Which is awesome. I don't hold any hopes for it but I really am pleased to have been considered. I'll know whether it was experience or life-changing quite soon, apparently.
It's going to be a good week - the final one of lectures. Woo.
Friday, April 2, 2010
18. I Don't Even Know Anymore (Negative)
It's been one of those weird days. Things seemed to be going well at first but started to wallow towards evening and ended in a conversation that really should not have happened with an old friend. I have this problem. I find it monstrously difficult to keep my mouth shut about something.
Secrets are OK, but if there's some nagging issue with a person, I keep wanting to mention it when I'm talking to them. And that happened tonight.
I'm not pleased. Not at all. In fact I am deeply angry at myself for being such a fool. It'd be fine, just a simple peccadillo, if I hadn't done it so many damn times before. An apology is not enough. I must feel bad about this for some time in penance. Perhaps I will write about it.
Perhaps not.
But I need to sort it out.
In my head and in the real world. The former is far more important.
That's all.
Secrets are OK, but if there's some nagging issue with a person, I keep wanting to mention it when I'm talking to them. And that happened tonight.
I'm not pleased. Not at all. In fact I am deeply angry at myself for being such a fool. It'd be fine, just a simple peccadillo, if I hadn't done it so many damn times before. An apology is not enough. I must feel bad about this for some time in penance. Perhaps I will write about it.
Perhaps not.
But I need to sort it out.
In my head and in the real world. The former is far more important.
That's all.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
17. Today Is A Good Day (Positive)
Once again I leave my blog to fester in this little-known corner of the Internet. I weep for it.
However, with no fanbase to speak of, I can be as slow and procrastinating as I like. Heh. That's probably bad for me.
Anyway. University continues to move at a frightening pace. This irritates me, but it's nothing new. New things are:
-I'm doing more shirts. I have received my second commission and am working on two stencils for a friend. Something of a rush job, but I'm used to it and hoping to do it well. I have a week anyway. Or, actually, four days. But yay for doing things!
-I have my very first essay for university due two weeks from today. It must be within 10% either side of 1200 words, which is all the exactness I'd expect from the Computer Science faculty, in fairness to them. The problem is that I picked this course specifically to not do essays, and it has worked out fine 'til now, but I'm starting to see Arts students in a whole new light... Meh. It'll be grand. I can do essays; hell, I got an A1 in Leaving Cert English. I'm just lazy and unacquainted with the Harvard Referencing System we use here in UL. This is changing however. (Not the laziness, the other one.)
-I have an idea for a webcomic. Regrettably, I only ever get such ideas individually. As in, I get a brilliant plan for a single strip but know it'll go nowhere after that first punchline. Sigh. Ah well, perhaps I'll do it anyway.
-I have remembered again how easy blogging actually is.
-I have started conforming to one of Morse's pet peeves and deleting 'actually' from sentences that don't need it. Again. I keep leaving this and coming back to it.
-I feel the need to read Morse again.
-My dinner is ready.
However, with no fanbase to speak of, I can be as slow and procrastinating as I like. Heh. That's probably bad for me.
Anyway. University continues to move at a frightening pace. This irritates me, but it's nothing new. New things are:
-I'm doing more shirts. I have received my second commission and am working on two stencils for a friend. Something of a rush job, but I'm used to it and hoping to do it well. I have a week anyway. Or, actually, four days. But yay for doing things!
-I have my very first essay for university due two weeks from today. It must be within 10% either side of 1200 words, which is all the exactness I'd expect from the Computer Science faculty, in fairness to them. The problem is that I picked this course specifically to not do essays, and it has worked out fine 'til now, but I'm starting to see Arts students in a whole new light... Meh. It'll be grand. I can do essays; hell, I got an A1 in Leaving Cert English. I'm just lazy and unacquainted with the Harvard Referencing System we use here in UL. This is changing however. (Not the laziness, the other one.)
-I have an idea for a webcomic. Regrettably, I only ever get such ideas individually. As in, I get a brilliant plan for a single strip but know it'll go nowhere after that first punchline. Sigh. Ah well, perhaps I'll do it anyway.
-I have remembered again how easy blogging actually is.
-I have started conforming to one of Morse's pet peeves and deleting 'actually' from sentences that don't need it. Again. I keep leaving this and coming back to it.
-I feel the need to read Morse again.
-My dinner is ready.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
16. Amnesia, Addiction, Etc. (Negative)
My mind continues to be exclusively prepared to remember things it wants to do, as opposed to things it knows it should.
As a result, I have yet again failed in my attempt to make a functional blog. But I carry on nonetheless...mainly because I told my mum I would (hi Mum) and you don't go back on that kind of casual remark.
Lately my cynicism levels have been remarkably high. I've been thinking about the human condition, or whatever you might call it, and I've realised that everyone has at least one vice. They might not all be obvious, but no-one is without their I-know-I-shouldn't-but habit. Mine is laziness. I don't do things when I should, and it's only under extreme duress that I study or practise something if I don't feel inclined to do so. I can resolve to improve all I like, but that's all that's possible - improvement. Perfection is a lie. It seems obvious and I had always accepted it before, but until you see it for yourself you don't believe it.
As a result, I have yet again failed in my attempt to make a functional blog. But I carry on nonetheless...mainly because I told my mum I would (hi Mum) and you don't go back on that kind of casual remark.
Lately my cynicism levels have been remarkably high. I've been thinking about the human condition, or whatever you might call it, and I've realised that everyone has at least one vice. They might not all be obvious, but no-one is without their I-know-I-shouldn't-but habit. Mine is laziness. I don't do things when I should, and it's only under extreme duress that I study or practise something if I don't feel inclined to do so. I can resolve to improve all I like, but that's all that's possible - improvement. Perfection is a lie. It seems obvious and I had always accepted it before, but until you see it for yourself you don't believe it.
Friday, January 15, 2010
15. Returning (Positive)
It's been a long time since the last post, hasn't it.
Yeah, well, I was busy. And complaining won't get you anywhere because I'll remind you that had I posted in the interim, you would only have been reading more of my whining. So shut up.
Aaaaanyway. Few things to clear up.
1. We got an A1 for our website and our TA suggested we go into web design professionally! Which is epic.
2. We had tests, which went OK. Now I am officially finished one eigth of the modules in my course! I love this system.
3. I'm currently in the final two weeks of a REALLY LONG Christmas break. Man. It has been too long. Pretty soon I'll be doing a Ph.D thesis in my spare time or something. So I'm looking forward to university on the 25th.
4. I got a graphics tablet for Christmas and have been killing my self-esteem with it ever since. I enjoy drawing though. So it's worth the cringing.
5. I'm planning to start posting on the blog regularly-ish from now. In fairness I'm really only writing this bit because I'll read it at some later date, not to appease non-existent fans of this blog. So, future James, get blogging! In the future!
6. I've discovered I can blog in Courier. YAY!
Yeah, well, I was busy. And complaining won't get you anywhere because I'll remind you that had I posted in the interim, you would only have been reading more of my whining. So shut up.
Aaaaanyway. Few things to clear up.
1. We got an A1 for our website and our TA suggested we go into web design professionally! Which is epic.
2. We had tests, which went OK. Now I am officially finished one eigth of the modules in my course! I love this system.
3. I'm currently in the final two weeks of a REALLY LONG Christmas break. Man. It has been too long. Pretty soon I'll be doing a Ph.D thesis in my spare time or something. So I'm looking forward to university on the 25th.
4. I got a graphics tablet for Christmas and have been killing my self-esteem with it ever since. I enjoy drawing though. So it's worth the cringing.
5. I'm planning to start posting on the blog regularly-ish from now. In fairness I'm really only writing this bit because I'll read it at some later date, not to appease non-existent fans of this blog. So, future James, get blogging! In the future!
6. I've discovered I can blog in Courier. YAY!
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